等候祢

John 4:4:46-54

Jesus said to him, “Go; your son will live." The man believed the word that Jesus spoke to him and went on his way.

耶穌對那人說話，那人就相信，繼而遵從。

在安靜裡，我問：

那我呢？耶穌，你又會對我說甚麼呢？然後我就單單地相信，單單地遵從？

Therefore the Lord waits to be gracious to you,

and therefore he exalts himself to show mercy to you.

For the Lord is a God of justice, blessed are all those who wait for him. （Isaiah 30:18)

等候，從來都不是一件容易的功課。

我不喜歡等候，我討厭等候。

等候，只讓我想起陳百強的歌：“等，寂寞到夜深，夜已漸荒涼，夜已漸昏暗。。。”

心中的那份不耐煩，叫我看見自己原來是多麼的想操控，又多麼的無助。

原來，我是那麼不願意歸回安息。

那年，我在書房的梳化上流淚禱告。

畢業後，我對前途一片迷惘，我很徬徨，很害怕，覺得自己很沒用。

但祢教我禱告，教我如詩人向祢呼求。

是祢教我要等候，因為祢是值得我等候的神。

今天，同樣的一個提醒，祢再次提醒我祢給我寶貴的應許：

For a people shall dwell in Zion, in Jerusalem;

you shall weep no more.

He will surely be gracious to you at the sound of your cry.

As soon as he hears it, he answers you,

And though the Lord give you the bread of adversity and the water of affliction,

yet your Teacher will not hide himself anymore,

but your eyes shall see your Teacher.

And your ears shall hear a word behind you, saying, "This is the way, walk in it," when you turn to the right or when you turn to the left.

(Isaiah 30:19-21)

“Don't you think I am worth waiting for?"

Yes Lord, you are.

＜等候祢＞

耶和華啊，我的心仰望你 神啊我素來倚靠你，求你不要叫我羞愧 耶和華啊，我的心等候你 求你將你道指示我，將你的路教訓我

神啊，求你記念你的憐憫和慈愛 因為這是亙古以來所常有 求你不要記念我幼年的罪愆和我的過犯 求你因你恩惠慈愛記念我

[副] 主啊我心裡愁苦甚多，求你憐恤轉向我 求你保護我的靈魂，求你醫治我受傷的心 主啊我深知你必將我的腳從網裡拉出來 因我要全心投靠你，因我要專一等候你 因這是你給我的寶貴應許 （感謝你給我永不落空的應許）